Journal I

This is my first try.

I am sorry.

I need to apologize to a lot of people, and for a lot of things. I am sorry for being so damn arrogant. I don't know ANYTHING. But, the more I learn, the more I forget. No matter what I learn, I still know nothing. I can't even keep myself straight. How can I expect to know you?

I am sorry for trying to fix you. You are perfect. Every one of you is perfect. And I am a fool, the biggest, dumbest fool for thinking that I could possibly know better. I am ashamed, ashamed to my very core for thinking that I knew better. God, I am so ashamed. I know this about myself, but I guess it's just a testament to my own weakness that I have done nothing about it. I am so, so sorry.

This is my fault, in every way. To each of you, I have been unfair, and had terrible expectations. There is no measure to my shame. I am so sorry. I hope that someday, you all can forgive me.