A dream

I just had an odd, strangely powerful dream about my great grandmother who passed about 4 years ago. I didn't know her that well, and I still don't know hardly anything about her. In my dream, we were all at my grandmas house (which looked completely different?) and we were sitting around awkwardly. My great grandma came over with two friends and brought lots of brownies for everyone, and then we went as a group to a different house of someone in the family's. While we were there, I was sitting next to my great grandma, and I asked her where the house came from and how it ended up that she owned it. She said to me, "Well that's a long story, and it has to do with my six year affaire. Yes, boy, I had a six year affaire, and you would have too if you were me," but I looked at her and said, "no grandma, I'm not casting any judgment here. Will you tell me the whole story?" She told me it would take longer than we had time for right then, so I asked if we could have lunch sometime. Right as we were about to set a date, a little girl, probably about 5 or 6 in a very pink fuzzy little diva's jacket comes up and says "hi Mr wes," gives me a super short and super awkward half hug, and then starts to walk away quickly back to her mother who is staring at her expectantly from the other side of the room. I look at her and say, "Oh julia, it's ok sweetheart, I know family gatherings are so awkward for everyone, especially when we don't know each other!" Then another relative yells out to her daughter "Maggie! Julia just showed you up!" and so Maggie comes running from around the corner in HER pink fuzzy sweater, gives me a huge hug and says "Hi uncle wesley!" Right there I look at her and say, "Maggie, could you sit on my lap and pretend that you like me for just a minute? Because I've never been anyone's uncle before" and she does, and I start crying because I've never felt anything like it before. And I look at my great grandmother who I'm going to have lunch with and Julia who doesn't like me, and Maggie who does, and all the blurry faces of my uncles and aunts and cousins and relatives that I don't know, and I wonder who they are and why they are here and why I never noticed before.

Hm...I haven't woken up crying in a very, very long time.