Decisions

Romans 8:28: "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

The problem with decisions: in a Sandbox RPG, like Oblivion or Fallout, I have this awesome option. If I don't like my decision, I can reload to my last save point. It's phenomenal because then I can get everything right. If it doesn't work the first time, I have second tries.

There is also online walkthroughs. If I'm stuck, or don't know the best way to do things, I can do it that way. Follow the instructions, which tell me the outcome, and the fallout of each decision.

Everyone knows real life isn't like this.

Instead, we make decisions based on limited information with the hopes that we predict well enough to prepare ourselves for the fallout of our decisions.

Instead, we take a shot in the dark, and pray to god that our decision doesn't FUCK everything UP.

Instead, we take shelter in a book that tells us the maker of the game can work all our decisions together towards a happy ending.

The bible tells me that, no matter my decisions, if I'm a jesus person, god will work everything together "for my good," What a terribly, unfairly vague phrase.

I believe that god works nothing together for good because things work themselves to whatever.





Here's my problem:
You can argue that Chopin is a feminist, fighting the patriarchy, or that she is supporting stereotypes of women and facilitating the patriarchy. Both have enough evidence. Neither is wrong. If you write a paper about either, they both have potential to be fantastic essays.

Here's my problem:
No matter what decision I make, I know it will be. It wont be good, it wont be bad. It will just BE. It's neither right nor wrong, better nor worse. If I choose left, then I will go left, and the whole time I will either be glad that I am going left or disappointed that I went left. It doesn't MATTER. I cannot make a decision knowing this.


It is a fools errand that seeks to follow a cosmic plan. The futility of the desperate. So, I guess, people like me?

Just when I think I have shit figured out...shit happens. That's the theme of the world. The fucking universe. Shit happens. Why? Doesn't matter. How? Doesn't matter. The fact is, shit happens. It doesn't matter if you made it happen or if it happens to you. It's still happening. What decision to you HAVE? You can give shit or take shit. You can make shit or destroy shit. You can kill shit or you can be shit. I don't know what I'm saying anymore.



God might work all things together for the good of those who love him. Or god might watch shit happen, while we attribute our biological instinct to survive to him.

I can't make a decision. It's too terrifying. I want a save point. I want a walkthrough. I want to read the decisions of my character before I make them, and know what the reactions and fallout will be.

Show me a good idea.

Shit happens, already.

Quote: The AA approach to shit.

"Shit happens - one day at a time"

I can't believe I tear up when I read this. One day at a time. Shit happens, but only one day at a time. Is that hope?